Memorizing God


Memorizing God


He gently traced the spidery veins on the back of my hand, blue and smooth beneath the transparent, pale skin. To my left, another little boy smoothed my braid, over and over, sometimes burying his nose in the honey brown strands, and sometimes brushing the soft ends on his cheeks, as a smile crossed his face.


There in that pew on a Sunday morning, my little boys were lovingly memorizing pieces of their mama. I know this, because I did the same when I was young.


I remember brushing against my mama’s leg while she sat on the couch visiting with a friend, as I played with my dolls on the floor at their feet. My child-like senses enjoyed the feel of the smoothness, and I thought, I wonder what Mama’s friend’s leg feels like? So I maneuvered myself nonchalantly across the carpet, and “accidentally” brushed against her, only to find it prickly, and unpleasant. Back I went to Mama’s leg; yes, the pleasant softness was still there. My mama is the softest!


She rubbed a cream into her face at night, and wore “Emeraude” perfume, or “Jontue”. Those scents can still bring back memories for me, memories that linger in the sweetest recesses of my heart, for they make me a child again. My mama smells the best!


I inherited her fair, fair skin, and while I did not value the unique beauty of it in myself, I marveled at the contrast between her dark hair and pale, soft skin. Much the way I thought Snow White would have looked, so was my mama to me. My mama is as beautiful as a princess!


Even my husband speaks in soft, reverent tones when he tells of his mother’s hand cream, Rose-Milk, and how she used it every night. (He believes she always used too much on purpose, just so she could rub his little hands in hers to get rid of the excess!) I’ve often thought about purchasing some for myself, for I would so like to trigger his senses again of the woman who mothered him until he was sixteen, and then passed away after a four-year battle with cancer.


Sometimes, I can hardly believe that I am now the mama, and my children think of me in the same ways that I thought of mine! It is truly wonderful and overwhelming at the same time. If they memorize those things, surely their impartial judgement will file my faults away with the rest!


I know that most days, my scented hair does little to cover the stench of my words. And many moments, lotion adorns hands that are not always gentle. Even more so, my fair skin is merely a shell on a dark spirit.


When I cried out to God and begged Him to keep my children from memorizing those parts of me that are not worthy, I was reminded that not one hair, not one cell, is really worthy of Him.


But then I found this.


For we are unto God an aroma of Christ among those who are being saved and those who are perishing. 2 Corinthians 2:15


Here at home, engaging in daily character building (for everyone!), and in the world, by example, I am to be an aroma of Christ to God, and to everyone around me.


And so, to prepare, I memorize God as I once memorized my mama, and as my children memorize me.


She gently traces the lines of the Word, following the path across the wrinkled, soft page. She inhales the fragrance of His truths, letting them fall on a yielding heart, memorizing the messages so she can recall them when they are most needed.

 A smile crosses her lips when she is comforted by the reminder that…


He has memorized her, too.


But the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Do not fear therefore; you are of more value than many sparrows. Matthew 10:30-31


Elise is a homeschool graduate and a minister’s wife. Together they worship with and care for two communities in Midvale and Weiser, Idaho, and homeschool their five children. When she has a little time to spare she loves to write, sew, and find new ways to make their sweet little parsonage a place of warm hospitality.

Committed to helping parents fulfill their God-given right and responsibility to educate their own children.